To Josh:
Damn babe…we really gonna go down like this?
We know what is going to happen to you. I just hope it is on our terms. Either way it is our separate paths now. You know now I stand with you and am solid with you any day, time or hour. But to you only time will prove what I say. I realize that but know that Not every woman is equal to the past. I had to grip that myself with how Robert stripped me of all… including my self esteem. I never thought I could love again…and then you walked into my life.
Here we are
Do you worry about what will happen to me? Alone against the world again. Yeah I learned to be a bad ass bitch before you ever shook my world….upside down and sideways. Fuck You that you have to leave! You gonna rip my heart out again…leave me bleeding on paper. Will I fall…in love with you again.. or apart??? I’m in it for life is what my heart tells me.
Damn straight… after Robert…my X I never thought I would recover. I never thought I would believe in myself. I never thought I would find love or happiness. I never thought I could. Yet here we are bae.
The first night was under the stars ..by Cowboy’s place. You said the you were falling in love. I smiled because I knew. You knew too it was back at you.
So you may love me….for just a minute.
I may love you….for just a minute…or forever.
I guarantee though….it was meant to be now…. between us…for us. I desperately needed you and your love and protection. I believe you needed me too for the journey you face.
Funny how love works.
In such a short period of time for us and look at all the crazy shit we have been through…I probably shouldn’t mention.
Yet here I am before you again.
Now and always Josh
Love,
Melanie
